My heart is very heavy this morning! As I began to walk around that which I am encircled by, I find confusion, a machine, an ever increasing next opportunity, the next speech, the next set; all for what? To do it all over again? Really is that what it has become? Is that what it really is about, a continuation of the same, the inompetetent insanity of carrying on a disfigured image of Christ.
Just recently I found myself sitting amongst a few followers that are very raw but so transparent in their journey with Jesus. A transparency that they do not have it together, that they have issues and struggles with sin, that they are fearful of the temptations that come their way...and it was so refreshing. To listen to a group that acknowledges the need of the Holy Spirit to make it from hour to hour rekindles the need for my dependence on the CREATOR of the UNIVERSE in my life.
As I read in Isaiah 5 this morning the words of the Prophet haunted me as they went from the whites of the pages to the resources of my mind. Here is what I read;
"Woe to you who add house to house and join field to field till no space is left and you live alone in the land. Surely the great houses will become desolate, the fine mansions left without occupants."
After reading thees verses I open the drawer of the desk to find a picture of my Grandmother who passed a few years ago, without Christ. As I looked into her eyes, tears ran from mine. Is she a result of the "lostness of the saved?" Have we forgotten what it really is about to be a follower of Jesus, living in Community, encouraging one another with our times of greatness, bitterness, and unkonwness?
God I need you and your direction ever more clearly now!
