Waking up in the middle of the night...

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night.  One of those wake ups that startle you and you are wide awake, eyes wide open!  It is impossible to go back to sleep.  I used to turn the radio on and place it in my ear and listen to some ridiiculous talk show that woke me up even more.

But last night I did something different...

I asked God, "Okay God you have me, so what do you want me to hear?"  As I begin to listen to the loudness of the quiet night, God begin to share this..."

"John, I want your complete life, not compartmentalized life, but it in its entirety."  

So what does this look like?  It really didn't make sense to me until this morning.  While sitting beside one of my brothers in the ministry...God led me to Matthew 20:28.  Basically summed up that Jesus didn't come to be served but to serve others and give his life up...  You catch that...his life!  

His entire life!  

God forgive me for giving parts of my life to you, but not in entirety!  God I love you...

As I am about to speak to the students, pour yourself out through me!  May I feel and understand to give my LIFE up as you did Jesus!

I love you!

Is.  55